Wednesday Night Report: I Wanna Go To A Place… with Happiness

I make this quick as I don’t have much time before I return back. Yeah, back there, not here. Hi guys, recently, or just yesterday people gather round in front of me to eat and talk and laugh, but then I’m the one at a corner looking at my player laughing to myself. It is hard to not notice that I’m apparently the one segregated from the crowd due to me not involved in their conversations or even eating at that point, but that doesn’t matter. Somewhat what I am not happy about is that the fact that they are, and I’m not. Well this is understandable as I always say:

“People in joy can never understand the other people who are not.” –Kaineng

(Audience: Seriously, your quote again?) Haha somehow. But then it seems that no one is actually interested to get me involved either, lest I flare up and get some of them disappointed. Maybe that is how people see me, a loner and someone who is better left alone. Sounds like the past me already, huh? It’s okay; I cannot expect people to do anything. I don’t control them anyway. That is why I want to go to a place; A place where I can see the ideal things in life. Is it not possible? Listen to Rie fu to find out:

This is also why I ended up choosing this as my Song of the day last night. (Audience: You still on the ‘Song of the day’ thing?) (Yep) Cya guys next time, where I’ll talk about Entertainment News. I noticed I missed it again, even though I came back on Monday…

[P.S.: This morning I also passed my physical fitness test, clearing everything required for the second year within one month (with range and obstacle course). This sure is an achievement man, now I can relax… Ahh my leg…]

Monday Night Report: Till The End of 2012…

“Interestingly,
I can forget
about me
being in the last day
of 2012.”
-Kaineng

Hi guys. Well I just came here since I remembered something, or else if I continue to stare at the TV for stare at the desktop of this computer for another hour or so I’ll be sleeping already and would not be typing this post. Today I’ll talk about the year 2012 in a glance, and tomorrow continue with New Year Resolutions and stuff. So for first, wish you guys a happy 2013 ahead!! Well let’s carry on then…
Ahem, this year is… about change, as I mentioned about it at the start of this year, or from the point that I entered the Army, because I told myself it is about time to make change within myself. Honestly, months later at December 2012, I have not made much progress. Moving out of the army lifestyle into going to a stay-out course and being able to go home everyday. I have gone back to that “school-and-fro” cycle yet again, in which my mood and guts would be shed considerably. If you guys ever understand this makes it even more a part of me, and that change here in terms of my character and behaviour… has not changed much.
This year… is about fulfilling. And I have made steps to do that. I think if I ever made a wishlist at the start of the year I would have fulfilled some of them now. *checked back* Ah yesh, how about we recap what happened on 1st January this year:
“‘A’ Level Results”
Did I achieve that? Obviously not, or else I wouldn’t be sick enough to just chuck my future education by the side when I see the army as a channel to forget everything. Haiz…
”National Service”
Till date… I can say I’m still not in danger. Not until if I ever (touch wood, my computer table is made of wood) get into any form of accident for my driving test after New Year’s, really. Then there wouldn’t be good news isn’t it? Let’s hop it continues going well? I’m hoping for the best, until hope fails me?
“I will continue to put in hope, until hope fails me.” -Kaineng
(Audience: lol…)
Oh the last time is interesting, the wish list!
“Obtain:
All Top 10 Singles and Albums mentioned in my Song Awards 2009-2011; (Audience: Wow…)
A phone, which is soon, since I’ll need one to get into Tekong, and also get some numbers before seeing the dreadful results…
A pair of glasses, which is vital since people in Tekong don’t like tourists who wear sunglasses in their morning parades.
EDIT: All photobooks I desire (which is not of your business xD)
Haha fortunately or unfortunately I am NOT going to buy any form of photobooks (for now, haha) as I’m a music appreciator, not some otaku. Ok I admit I’m close, let’s hope I can get out of it still. The first three have been fulfilled, ever since I signed on to CdJapan and they have fulfilled my requests with the signage of my debit card and the glasses needed for army… and for me to confirm the things I order. In addition, I actually got a BLEACH calendar set, which is seriously my first calendar purchase and the biggest I’ve gotten for myself. My wish for an MP3 Player almost came true along with many things off Amazon, but I haven’t gotten into I thought I’d had a longer list, but then we’ll see about this tomorrow, yeah?

…

What?
(Audience: It seems like you’re so happy about everything…) No I’m not. I’m putting a nice face because I’m not like LX (oops) and obviously am acting to show how positive my mind is. Failure is nothing. Anyways, in Life, if you fail, doesn’t mean you will die. If not, half the population (at least) would not have existed when they were born. Haha. Am I wrong? You could correct me~
Hmm in conclusion then. I must say this year’s interesting, not say happy, but exciting, at the least. Breaking out of the school cycle finally made me see more of the world, and this will form the basis of the story I have started this year: A Pack of Life. And this is no dream… I’ve already done FOUR chapters of the main story, and my main goal of finishing (it was originally twice the number) 150 chapters until the point I get my degree will stay for the last part of my basic education phase (I use ‘basic’ means I can still study…) as a tribute to my efforts for creativity all these years. You guys read Chapter 4 yet? Give some feedback lah, the least you could give is grammar mistakes…
Whether happy or not, life still has to go on. And happy or not, somewhat everything balances up, even though the highs and lows are closer to extreme every time you take a step out of your comfort zone. Yeah? Let’s live life with the best of our abilities! (sounds like some Japanese, but if I were to type it out I’ll need to brush up my Japanese? Hey, new year resolution…) In these time I can only comfort myself with this lah, haha. I think this is long enough. I’ll end this year with a… Wait for it… (Audience: No I’m not waiting for i-) Here!

(Audience: だれ？) Kawano Marina-chan! She somewhat sidetracked from her career to… make herself cuter? Man, she’s even shorter than miwa-chan at 148cm! I duno man; Short girls these days have so much talent…
Cya guys then, and cya 2012. Until 2013… I’ll continue on New Year Resolutions. Bye~
[Backstage]
See? I didn’t make this too dull after all!
(Audience: Maybe because you gave yourself time during the weekend to think things through? Myabe you’re bored of writing this?)
Haha, maybe…
[P.S.: Note that this place would not change, unlike past years, and would stop… either I ORD (“ORD LO!”) or end of 2014. We’ll see about it, yeah?]

Wednesday Morning Report: Down!, Boredom & Despair, The Start of The End

Haha. Hi guys. And I’m… I-

"すみませんでした！"

(Audience: Why the sudden-) Really, SORRY for the many weeks of not writing anything on this… deserted plain of nothing but text. SORRY for not updating about my BMT life and the shows and music I am entertained in the past month. Really, I’m apologising for my lack of promise and insincerity for doing so. (Audience: So that means this time your apology is also insin-) No! This is by far my most sincere, so please forgive me for everything. NOW… (Audience: ???) *white light appears* (Audience: !!!)

Haha that was just some stupid effect, forgive me. (Audience: We’re going to be Jesus soon if we have to keep forgiving you… [No offence xD]) Okay, let’s get started. Basically this post is going to explain what the heck happened to me in the past month of my life, from passing out from BMT (yesh I already did), future plans and… everything else military. Which does not have a security level of above “Confidential”. Which… I think I can say and show. Facebook has the pictures, so what’s so difficult?

Well… First things first let’s talk about something recent; The Passing Out Parade. And not forgetting the 24km Route March, which almost sacrificed my feet. (Audience: ??) Haha somewhat that was an exaggeration, but I wasn’t lucky on this. For 17 weeks of wonderful weather – even in Field Camp and SITEST – there in comes a bad weather on the START of the Route March, when we’re doing warm-up. I reminded people who asked about a Saturday evening showers, and when you’re in shelter seeing the precipitation fall, I was IN FRONT OF A PORTY, TAKING THE RAIN FULLY AS IT FALLS, WITH NO HEAD GEAR OR SHELTER TO HIDE IN. And that applies to the 2700+ recruits who were there also, so it really is ‘felt by the mass’, you know.

“Don’t delay the inevitable.” –Sergeant Jimmy

After that, it was just nothing better. When you feel your feet are immersed in water like being in a swimming pool, and your field pack, vest and helmet are all wet, suddenly everything seems heavier than usual, which made the journey down worse. On the other hand, at least the scenery are doing me good, or I’m just putting a lot of my energy in concentrating on walking this trip. As I always say (at least in BMT phase nowadays):

“I’ll be glad when this is over!” –Kaineng

As I was moaning about the march, at least when it’s over it’s still better than ever, and the mood for POP (yeah abbreviations) finally came close, as we change up, and… though it isn’t glam for those who came early in the audience, you can actually see a whole bunch of teens lying on the ground, sleeping. Yeah.

“Goddamn faggot!” –Warrant Sonny
“Ka-bai!” – Warrant Naga

Yeah, and so the parade announcement startled everyone soon, and we all woke up to wash up, and prepare for the occasion. It went well, and as you throw off that Jockey Cap, it just feels that everything is over. Really. But then you know this is only the start of Every Singaporean Son’s two-year service for the country. Haiz, I told to myself:

“I hope I end up well after two years.” –Kaineng

So then I’m here, enjoying my… seemingly one-week break. I duno. If I receive the notice on Friday and sees it tells me to report on Saturday then there’s no point for saying the length of this break, isn’t it?

Yep. *blushes* Everything before suddenly seems unimportant already. The 16km march, BIC (you donid to know what it is if you duno), long hours of admin time without my memory card (yeah I still remembered that week; it sucked) etc. Because… BMT’s over. No more Tekong bus trips or ferry trips (at least not to and fro Tekong lah). No more lousy water quality and… cookhouse food. (Well, I’m not complaining about the food…) No more (for the time being) climbing of 5 storeys of stairs. No more… wait, isn’t it “no more” already? Why can I bother to list this much? OMG… Oh no. It’s “OMDBG”… (Audience: ???) *Kaineng whispers* (Audience: Ahh Taoist vulgarities…) (?)

OK. Enough about the past. Let’s talk a bit about the future, and the next post will be about Entertainment News. Till date, I still have no idea about where I would go for the rest of my two-year service. Anywhere is possible, it seems, and that means I’m prone to hitting any vocation I desire/don’t desire. Yeah. Hope for the best is the only thing I can do, and what vocation I get will determine (I emphasise again, dear guests) whether I will give a treat to my dear cousins. Haha…

Cya guys then, for now. Next post is on Entertainment News for the past month. Big gaps need to be covered, you know. Especially when you guys still do not notice I have a new CPU?? (Audience: Really?) Whiskey Taurus Foxtrot… (Credits to Kahwee :))

[P.S.: You guys need pics- (Audience: NO!) Oh yah, I shouldn’t place another to out-glam myself… (Audience: |||…)]

Monday Evening Report: A Bunch of Food for Thought

Well I felt this place needed more stuff, so I don’t mind sharing what I think, especially recently without a proper Web Diary already. Or else I’ll be doing graffitti on my wall of diary entries instead of here. (Haha got used to spelling the band until I spell this wrongly xD) Well, let’s get started then.

~From my recent Messenger:
”Count it a blessing to be alive. Count it a privilege to be dead.” -Kaineng

~Recently peeked at how epic Kara no Kyoukai is and from the 5th movie:
”What do you seek? Where do you seek? Where are you trying to reach, when all in all is within yourself?” –Kaineng
(Okay kinda sorry I kinda f*cked that up, I was thinking of something else…) (Audience: LX?) (Shut up.)

~Just thought about it as I type:
”What you are looking at is not the world. It’s just reality wrapped with the powers of fantasy.” –Kaineng
(Audience: So that’s your worldview huh…)

Haha maybe if I remember more I’ll place it here. And damn I had a dream last night and I thought I could remember. And then I knew why I couldn’t: It was the first of an apocalypse of them last night…

[P.S.: Been considering whether to do up the 2nd album of music box melodies by March. Seems that I need to fit inspiration into another present inspiration…]
[P.P.S.: Reminder that I’ll be here to comment about BLEACH this week and Shana last week. Hope the Aqua Timez ending is good. No, hope it’s fantastic. I have high hopes…]